I just wrote a very strongly worded email to someone I had thought was a friend of mine.

I feel bad about this fight we’re having. Disagreement. Friendship-ending fight. Something.

It’s frustrating when people are convinced they’re right - because then they do childish things like dragging your personal business into public forum, jeering, laughing, pointing fingers and basically acting like a gossipy teenager at your expense.

I was never really picked on in school, but I’m guessing this is what it feels like.

I ended the email by telling her that I hope she finds peace, and that I hope the next time she has a friend who has a problem or secret that needs her understanding and support, they will find a friend in her instead of someone who makes fun of them in public for sport.

I’m not terribly concerned with other people thinking I’m a pile of shit. That’s fine. I’m not trying to make everyone happy, I’m just trying to live my life and not step on anyone’s toes. I pride myself on the fact that I don’t lie to people; when I borrow something, I give it back; I don’t steal, I don’t cheat. Regardless of this, my personal character is now mud because this person who I counted as a friend decided it was appropriate to vilify me in public.

I’m sad that I’ve lost a friend, but I’m more sad that I wasted so much time with a person who never cared about me to begin with. So many people get their rocks off by getting on a high horse, pointing a finger, and making themselves feel better by either pitying or bullying other people. I’m guilty of having done this in the past and maybe this is my karmic retribution - but really, when you’re 32 years old, it’s probably time to act like a grown-up and handle yourself accordingly.

I may have not had the easiest time in the past year as far as employment, finances, and relationships with my family, and I’m far from perfect, but I certainly don’t deserve the treatment I’ve gotten from her. I’m not going to roll over and take it just because I made a mistake that upset her. She has every right to be mad, and she can say whatever she wants about me as a result, but she shouldn’t be surprised when I fight back.

I really have the urge to tell her that her boyfriend cheated on her. And that he came over to my house a month or so after moving in with her, pinned me to the floor, and told me he was still in love with me and wanted to move in with me instead.

But that would be catty, wouldn’t it? Posting her personal business in public forum for everyone to see?

Yeah. That would be catty.

Oops.