May 2010
3 posts
March 2010
3 posts
February 2010
13 posts
I quit. I absolutely fucking quit.
I refuse to apologize anymore, to beat myself up anymore, to quiet my opinions and assertions, and to try and let people down gently because they don’t like something about me.
I’m not going to sit back and let anyone talk down to me, tell me that I disgust them, sit there while they say things that no reasonable person would just stay silent and take, and tell me that they will only...
I got to spend some time with the Danimal today which was so very therapeutic.
The way he looks at me with his doe eyes, no matter what I’ve done, no matter what disagreements we’ve had in the past, and no matter how uncertain the future, he always gives me the same look: Hi! Carrot? Backrub? Riding? Carrot? Carrot?
I just wrote a very strongly worded email to someone I had thought was a friend of mine.
I feel bad about this fight we’re having. Disagreement. Friendship-ending fight. Something.
It’s frustrating when people are convinced they’re right - because then they do childish things like dragging your personal business into public forum, jeering, laughing, pointing fingers and...
I fucking hate the internet.
Furthermore, I hate that friendship is so… shall I say.. conditional.
And I hate that everyone is quite quick to point fingers, form judgments of me, and accuse me of being a horrible rotten miserable person without hearing my side of the story.
That’s right. My opinion doesn’t matter anymore. I forgot.
Please to be telling me why I have so many 15 year...
Reblog with explanation, because as far as I can figure out it’s because I reblog pictures like the one below. My idiotic rambling about my horse, my husband, my sex life and my dogs cannot be so fucking interesting to a kid.
Thank you. Thanks very much.
I hate insurance companies.
My mother in law got three new prescriptions for pain medication yesterday. These prescriptions needed to be pre-authorized by her insurance company.
So, on a holiday weekend, while she’s writhing in pain, we have the following choices:
Come up with the $400 in the next two hours to get them out of the pharmacy so she can start taking her medication and actually be pain-free, and just wait...
January 2010
16 posts
Sometimes I worry that I'm too neurotic about what...
likeaphoenixignition:
And yes, you may wine and dine me anytime. And for that matter, if you do end up back east, plan to come up to the City so Morgan and I can do the same for you guys!
Fuck yes!
I love the city. I haven’t spent nearly enough time there… I don’t think I’d live there, though. I don’t like people enough to be around them all the time… but...
i don't do anything sexual with someone i don't...
likeaphoenixignition:
heatherisamotherfuck:
likeaphoenixignition:
purpleflowerpower:
landfield:
(via owlb0nes)
honestly, half the time I have to do something sexual before I can figure out whether or not I really have feelings for someone.
Unfortunately, if it turns out I don’t, I’m horribly awkward at backing out of the situation. I’m the douchebag who just stops calling :/
I...
Sometimes I worry that I'm too neurotic about what...
likeaphoenixignition:
the rest of the time, I worry that I’m not neurotic enough about it
I think of you as a giant Carebear.
Then again, that may be a bit insulting to a dude.
I assure you I mean it in the most loving way possible… as you are a kind, warm, generous, caring person with a riotous sense of humor, and I consider myself lucky to call you my friend.
(And if we do happen to...
i don't do anything sexual with someone i don't...
likeaphoenixignition:
purpleflowerpower:
landfield:
(via owlb0nes)
honestly, half the time I have to do something sexual before I can figure out whether or not I really have feelings for someone.
Unfortunately, if it turns out I don’t, I’m horribly awkward at backing out of the situation. I’m the douchebag who just stops calling :/
I usually figure out whether or not I had feelings...
Well, we got the word from the doctor, sort of.
According to Allyn, (and the nurse refused to corroborate, saying she wasn’t qualified to interperet the test results and that I’d have to speak with the doctor tomorrow) she has an “tumor” that “looks ominous” that is “spreading to her heart”.
Being that she is still kind of half confused, I’m not 100% certain that’s actually what is...
Sometimes I feel there are loads of people on here...
likeaphoenixignition:
thingsaredarkerhere:
ashtrayheartedgirl:
But actually, I seriously don’t.
And nearly everyone’s younger than me, and really, it irritates me.
amen, being 19 on tumblr is like being 40 in real life, you’ve got nothing in common with anyone.
please kill me
19? Are you fucking with me?
Munly & The Lee Lewis Harlots - Amen Corner.
...
I don't enjoy doing this sort of thing but...
I’ve started up the Allyn Is Sick! Fund to help us out while she’s in the hospital.
Allyn is my mother-in-law. She has had emphysema/COPD, heart disease and congestive heart failure for some years already. This past weekend, we noticed her health starting to go downhill.
She was diagnosed with pnuemonia in her upper left lung, and the doctors found a mass, also in her left lung, on...
Aw, crap.
I’ve turned into a foodie.
(No, not the kind that gets naked and covers myself in jello and chocolate sauce and milk and whatever else and then gooshes around with other naked people covered in other assorted gooshy foods. Nothing against those guys, but yuck, and I’m fairly certain there’s a term for them other than “foodie”, [splooshing, I think] but I’m way...
Be weird,be random,be who you are because you...
fiz:
likeaphoenixignition:
heatherisamotherfuck:
likeaphoenixignition:
purpleflowerpower:
(via xmyyy)
im not weird or random. im just sad and skeezy and self loathing.
if you wanna love that, bring it on.
Don’t you just hate those people that are all hearts and flowers and “You WILL find your Prince Charming!” and “There’s someone for everyone!”
Sure that’ll happen: for those of...
Be weird,be random,be who you are because you...
likeaphoenixignition:
purpleflowerpower:
(via xmyyy)
im not weird or random. im just sad and skeezy and self loathing.
if you wanna love that, bring it on.
Don’t you just hate those people that are all hearts and flowers and “You WILL find your Prince Charming!” and “There’s someone for everyone!”
Sure that’ll happen: for those of us that are...
I’m about to go fuck up some tater tots like the world is ending.
I’ve decided to become a professional dominatrix. No really.
I also have a desperate craving for tater tots. I really hope that when I go downstairs my freezer relents and surprises me with the presence of these marvelous things.
(Sad, really, I am lucky and have a gourmet meal ~4 times a week, and I still crave tater tots? How pathetic.)
October 2009
1 post
I found an old ad I had up on a singles site.
How embarrassing. The only ad I ever posted, quite dubiously, at the amusing suggestion of a friend (you know who you are) because I figured, why not? And now, since I logged in due to an email notification that I had New Messages!, I’m getting drowned in messages from troglodytes.
I’m glad I’ve learned to laugh at myself.
Also, tomorrow I go back to another farm for another...
August 2009
9 posts
There is currently a competition in my household to be what I call “The Most Valid Complainer”.
Although grammatically incorrect, the term is fully descriptive.
Our A/C died three days ago. In the afternoons our house is over 100 degrees. The landlord refuses to have it fixed, at least so far.
It's called transference I think.
superdoofus-stratodrive:
henryeatspeople:
My married friend asked for suggestions for sex music. We discussed music she could do a stripdance to. Then she asked about music she could play after the dance whilst they’re getting it on. I immediately said Portishead, no hesitation.
Now all she talks about is how amazing Portishead is.
Now whenever we talk I think of sex.
troof.
pretty hate...
thelemasmorta: i've seriously considered putting up a webcam site so pervy people can watch us fuck for 99.99 a month.
drugtr: id pay
thelemasmorta: morta33@gmail.com for paypal
thelemasmorta: and shit's on
drugtr: hell if you just write me steamy emails i will pay
thelemasmorta: you can totally pretend you're jason!
drugtr: mmmmmm
thelemasmorta: i can mail you my panties.
drugtr: preferably stained brown@!
thelemasmorta: i'll wipe my ass with them next time i poo
thelemasmorta: and put them in a ziplock
drugtr: just DONT wipe, walk around for a day and ill pay more
thelemasmorta: as long as you don't want pics of me licking them afterwards i'll do it
drugtr: nope
thelemasmorta: ok. but you'll have to PAY
thelemasmorta: at LEAST like fifteen bucks for that
drugtr: ill give you 10
thelemasmorta: 12.50
drugtr: and a picture of lionel ritchie that i found on the sidewalk
thelemasmorta: 11?
beautifulanddepraved:
“I tend to access them through deep love and openness, or through really intense, pounding fucking. The latter are therapeutic in that I feel like something is locked up inside me and I can’t reach it through words, or by a name, but if I’m fucked long enough and hard enough then it just tumbles out of me. In grunts, tears and unwinding. I get there through endurance and...
Damn this whole not having a job thing. It’s addicted me to Farmville.
Oh to be a bag lady. →
July 2009
11 posts
No news on the job front.
I also discovered that there IS a candy called Charms, and it wasn’t just Generation Kill avoiding Copyright infringement.
Sidenote: I am now the proud owner of Fruity Rudy desktop wallpaper, and signed up to be in his online Hero Living program.
Fuck. Yes.
(Read the articles that inspired the book/miniseries, because they are good: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3)
True Blood needs less Anna Paquin and less of the Sookie character in general, because every time she speaks I want to stab her right in the face.
There is a smell coming from the kitchen that makes me want to eat and fuck.
I have such a headache. All I want is a cigarette, and payday isn’t til the 1st.
I have $1.86 in my paypal. Think that’s enough to go buy me some Bugler?
